Fit in my KASUT!

Baru je selesai menonton Avatar di kaca TV. This particular episode show the journey of a blind girl who tries to live independently, in fact, too independently. She wants to do things on her own, build up tent on her own, find food on her own, and eventually, she spurned the helps offered by others. She exclaimed that she doesn’t want to be treated differently, simply because of her impaired vision. Tapi, tiba-tiba datanglah seorang pakcik tua yang bagitahu, getting helps doesn’t mean that you’re weak and tidak berkemampuan.

However, me on the other hand is too dependent dekat orang lain. Nak paksa diri buat kerja sendiri, punyalah malas tahap gaban. Tak tahu la kronik ker tak. Tapi, bila kat rumah jer, my routine dialogues mesti start dengan …”mama, tolong itu…” or “akak, tolong ini,”… or “baby, teman abang jap…”. Sampai diorang pun naik fed up agaknyer.

Tapi yg magik-nyer, kat hostel tak pernah pulak macamtu. My room mesti I tidy up sendiri, my dishes, my clothes, mesti siap berkemas tanpa disuruh. Dah terbiasa gamaknya. Tapi, yg tak best nya, kat hostel I still rasa tak mampu berdiri atas kaki sendiri. Nak buat apa2, mesti nak suruh orang teman. Kalau kat Terendak dulu, si Azaruddin yg jadi mangsa, then bila dah transfer Taiping, Si Mizan plak jadi pengganti. Lepastu, walaupun my age has passed the legal 8teen, I still need Shahid to usher, to escort, or to jadi my body guard around KMB. Kenapa ek?? Self esteem problem kot. Tapi once in a while, saya gagahkan la juga diri. Buat benda sensorang, sebab diorang semua agaknya dah naik bosan dgn kerenah diri. He he he, sorry guys…

Hurm, agaknya, macam mana laa nak jadi independent kan. Bilalah nak mature. Tahun depan, umur dah nak masuk 21 tapi still….macam budak tadika… ^_^

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